Here’s something I never expected: the worst thing that ever happened to me became the very thing God uses most.

When Samantha died, I couldn’t see past the next breath. The idea that this loss could ever become a testimony — that God could actually use it — felt impossible, maybe even a little offensive. But slowly, gently, He started showing me that my story wasn’t over. It was just getting a new chapter.

“And they have conquered him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony” (Revelation 12:11, ESV). Your testimony isn’t the polished, everything’s-fine version. It’s the real one — the tears, the questions, the slow healing, and the God who never left.

In this episode, I share how my loss started becoming my testimony, and how yours can too — not by rushing past the pain, but by letting God weave it into something that brings other moms hope.

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Your story matters, mom. If this episode encouraged you, share it with someone who needs to hear that her pain has purpose. And as always — if you’re in crisis in the U.S. or Canada, call or text 988 any time.