For Christian Moms who have lost a child to suicide
Testimony Through TearsA Christ-centered podcast and ministry for moms carrying grief that words can barely hold. Find faith, hope, and healing — together.
You Don't Have To Walk Through This Alone
If you’ve lost a child, everything changes in a moment.
The emotions come fast… and sometimes all at once—shock, anger, guilt, confusion, numbness.
You may not know what to do with any of it.
This space was created so you don’t have to figure that out alone.
Here, we don’t rush healing.
We don’t ignore the hard parts.
We learn how to bring every piece of our grief to God—and let Him meet us there.
Whether your loss is recent or years behind you…
you are welcome here.
Janet’s Story
Grief Doesn’t Have the Final Word
In January 2025, I lost my daughter Samantha to suicide. In the days and weeks that followed, I searched for a place that understood and was faith-based — a space that didn’t rush healing or offer empty comfort and pointed the way to Christ.
I couldn’t find one. So I built it.
Testimony Through Tears is my answer to the silence — a Christ-centered community where moms are free to bring every hard emotion to God and let Him meet them there.
Last picture of Janet & Samantha, December 2024 on Samantha’s birthday
What you will find here:
Podcast
Created to walk alongside Christian moms who are grieving the loss of a child to suicide. Every episode is anchored in God’s truth, gently pointing you back to His steady, unchanging love.
Resources for Grieving Moms
Bible Studies, Devotionals, Prayer Books and so much more to help guide grieving moms through this season of grief and help them discover God’s faithfulness.
Pretty Feet Workshops
When we think about beautiful feet, we usually picture pretty shoes, polished toes, and maybe a good pedicure. But Scripture gives us a very different picture of beautiful feet. Beautiful feet are feet that have walked somewhere—and then carried the good news of God into someone else’s life.
Booking Workshops now for Women’s Ministry events, Retreats and Grief Groups now.
Latest Podcast Espisode
The Guilt I Carry After My Child’s Suicide
A gentle place to begin If you are a grieving mom carrying guilt after your child’s suicide, you may be living with questions that never seem to rest. What did I miss?Could I have stopped it?Was I enough?Did I fail my child? These questions can become...
Why I Choose Take Advice from Women Who’ve Walked This Road
The unique fellowship of bereaved mothers"She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future."In the early days after I lost my child, well-meaning people said a lot of things to me. Time heals all wounds. God needed another angel. At...
16 Months In: What Grief Actually Looks Like
People who haven't walked this road sometimes ask me how I'm doing with a hopeful look in their eyes — like maybe enough time has passed that I have a tidy answer for them. I don't. Sixteen months ago, I lost my daughter Samantha. She was 26 years old. And if you're...